destress~~

I use number of day to digest all things n I choose to use a more direct way than u to tell u what I feel after I read what had u write on me.
Not only u are 'small gas' i'm too.

Although I really cry badly after read it, keep on console myself it doesn't matter after few day will be ok maybe she just too angry on me. But I'm wrong! Totally wrong!!

Maybe I just hurt you a lot without notice, what can I say just sorry. I try hard to pretend nothing happen between me n u, but u didn't give me a chance at all. I though u will go to the class, so I make a very very hard decision n step in the house but u didn't come, that time I still console myself u sick so cant attend but 2nd time u also didn't come without any reason I just know this is serious. Everyone who know you will asking me why u didn't come. U just throw all this for me to handle, what u want me to answer them?? " oh~ she just don't want to be friend with me any more so she didn't come"  or  "I'm just too annoying n I gave her a lot of stress so she unfriend me". I hate u, u didn't give me a chance to talk to u straight away veto me. I'm sorry that I can't stand it anymore I'm going to burst! I don't want to cry like a fool anymore.

I find out without u I become more independent maybe previous days I just too rely on u. I'm trying my best to be independent, drive alone although I totally ‘路痴" get a data plan so that i can find my way back home using google map.

Trying my best to make more n more new friend in my uni, trying my best to have new girls friend n not to be  a little flower cat. I will live better, previous I just put myself in a little circle, I will walk out from my little circle. Actually sometimes I feel that u just want to take advantage from me but I accept it, friend are always taking each others advantages. I don't think that I did treat bad on u n my family also treat u in a good way. But what u did on me make me upset n make my family also sense something wrong on us but they didn't ask me I'm appreciate it, I still have my family who support me.

Seriously I'm crying will typing this. It mean to me that v will be totally end. Actually I doesn't want it to write it out at all but it just like a stone place deep in my heart make me difficult to breath. So I choose the same way as u.

BTW
Not just u need time, me too.
i don't think that I will accept u anymore.
I don't mind what will u comment about me to others.
I let u free now.

bye. my previous BFF


woohooo~
Feel 'DESTRESS' after vomit out all things in deep of my heart.
I won't cry about this anymore this will be the last.

finally my birthday post

Finally I post my 20th birthday post...
Really swt that I totally forgot to blog about it
This time we just had a simple dinner at Publika The Bee with my dearest BFF's Albee & Kelvin
lets pic talk~~

credit by kelvin waiwai

Miss Albee~

Mr Kelvin

& we meet our dearest Jean & Torng also~

oh ya~ i had balloons as a part of my birthday present also~

I'm just too hungry that time~ ==

 due to my phone out of battery & someone forgot to bring memory card for his dslr so this year I just had very few picture. T3T

N we forgot to take my cake picture o.0 sad case....

1st August 2012

The time flew so fast and now was already 1st August and i already officially turns 20 years old T3T
I just too busy and almost forgot to update my blog. Recently I was busy working and learning korean language. hehe^^
I'm just started my Korean language class hope that I can read and speak before I go Korea so that i can talk to Korean people~
I not yet have time to upload all my birthday celebration photo and present.
I will soon update a post about my birthday celebrate.
thank to all that remember my birthday and our present i really like it so much~

TEEHEE~

today just stopped at here stay tune to my birthday post hehe^^

OPPS~ IS JULY!!!

JULY means what??
means that my birthday is near!!!
I'M JULY BABY!!!!
haha~ stop crazy-ing
although is really near now.

actually this mid July i will know that i had being offer by any uni anot...
BUT
I DIDN'T GET ANY!!!
HOLY!!!


I didn't really feel sad for it so just have fun. What a cheerful girl~ haha
Congrats my friends who get offer~
We all will difficult to meet each others after this T~T
Although some of u didn't satisfied with the UNI or subject.
AT LEAST U ALL GOT IT OK!!

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PS:
the weather now was worst...
just tooooooooo HOT!!!
n i get sick......... TT

end of june

Now I only find out that I just wrote 1 entry of blog during June..
OMG I'm just too busy & lazy to update it.
Recently I very dilemma with my hair...
Whether wanted to cut it short or dye a new colour?
I can't decided!!!
I wanted to dip dye it but the length for my hair now look like not suit...
My hair now still got the curl part this make me so frustrated & the hair colour make may hair look unhealthy & dull.
Everyday i need such a long time to blow it into a sweet straight look.
But I'm a lazy person so when my hair getting longer i just tie it up & don't bother it.
And now I change my mine I WANT TO HAVE A HAIR CUT & NEW HAIR COLOUR!!!

June~~

Is June now!!
The time flew so fast n my birthday are near....
OoO OMG
Y SO FAST!!!
I'm not prepare for my 20 yet...
I'm not yet think what I want for my birthday...
I don't want so fast being really 20 la!!!
Huhuㅠ.ㅠ

end of MAY mean's??

end of the MAY mean's what??

SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!!!

BUT

i didn't have school holiday anymore T0T

i just too busy until no time update my blog over here

busy about what??

busy working & shopping i think ^^

already 5 months i working at my working place

satisfied with it although when staring not get used with the working situation

now i can face the problem occur n cure it by myself compare with the pass time

i also learn alot how to 'attack' back those people that use their butt to think by using a very good way i think~ like 'word inside word' but some slow slow geh will thought i praise them LOL!

BTW

i went to langkawi during mid-may

nothing to do & just have fun...

just bikini, beach & alcohol 

who call there where duty free for alcohol drink

alcohol drink same price with cola what will u choose??

duty free make me crazy shopping

so damn cheap!!!

chocolate , alcohol drinks , beach wear , bags....

that all for it.........

see you my bloggie~

My very first time driving at Peneng

Woohoo!! Today was my very first time driving my dear SAGA (P.S I didn't drive my house geh saga b4 de lo) haha^^ from the graveyard there to my baba old house quite far 1 xia... When my father give me car key I was WOW!! Really give me drive wor so trust my driving skill o?? But my my brother n my cousin brother quite scare de lo... The very first thing they do is quickly put on ur safety belt!! Haha but Peneng driver really very kong pu 1 xia lo... My cousin bro say if lorry u must let them go 1st if not they will hit u. I was HUH?? Not they let me go 1st de meh? The size of road at Peneng compare with kl really really small lo.. I very scare that I will hit the car beside me lo n motor more than car n the motorcycle were the most BIG boss on the road. So there was the big different between kl n Peneng lo...
BUT
after i safety reach my cousin house i only started scare & i keep on asking myself
'why you so brave de?? '
 'you not scare de meh?? '
'you don't know the way back home you still dare to drive o??'
then i only knew that my heartbeat so DAMN fast!!!
haha^^
new experience but i think no more next time...
Last but not least today I lat P la!!! Congratulation~ put firework!! Haha

20-03-2012

actually today i very very unhappy & moody....
luckily i hv a BFF  that will listen to me & talk to me, if not i really don't know what i will do after that.
i was very sad since last night, i feel like don't want go back home any more (P.S : i know that i was a very bad idea)
i don't want to face them nor talk to them, because i know i will more angry & sad...

i'm a very emotional girl...
very easy to cry when some feeling come to me
i will suddenly cry while talking and the tear will like spoil water tap keep on rolling out from my eyes and i also don't know why.

today i was out whole day and try keep myself happy and forget those unhappy things
EAT, MOVIES, SHOPPING to just let myself fill with happy memories.
but i found that i failed, because when i back to home the feeling come back to me.
i feel that i so useless.....

CRY maybe will just the way to let me release all this...
i'm alone n feel not secure...

D'day

finally D'day had come...
i already wait it for long long time until i had no mood to take it...
because YOU really let me wait too long already lo!!!
actually that YOU ia my STPM result.
it was a nightmare for me, i always will dreamed that i fail the exam. it shock me and awake when midnight.
it make me scare n i not dare to face it when it come
before the time come i cant even control myself, mt eyes keep on have tear rolling out from it and i also don't why...
maybe i was too nervous or my nightmare going to come true...
OMG! can't even imagine it if i really fail it...

when the time come i really really very scare and my hand was shivering...
i not dare to open nor see my result when i get it...
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luckily i had pass it~

HORRAY!

NO MORE NIGHTMARE!!!

although i had no A's but at least all pass~

SATISFY~

hehe

乱

现在整个就是乱！

心绪很乱！！

搞不清楚对方把我当哥儿们还是什么。。。

它对每个人都这样吗？？ 我不知道！


如果不是就不要让我误会。。

越想心情就越不好！很烦啊！！！！！！！！

成绩要出我已经快崩溃了，现在又来一个

我现在真的不知道自己要什么了

真的真的不知道。。。

很乱啊！！！

end of february

the time flew so fast now already end of February

n i already so long didnt update my blog feel like got spider web on it~ haha

i had started my new life in 2012~

started to work

and i already work almost 2 month already~

fast fast give me a big clap! haha

recently i working at shojikiya~

quite ok with the salary just i have less free time lo~

but never mind less go out means less use money so that i can save more money~ wakaka~

just hope that i can save as many money as i can this year~ so FIGHTING!!!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

just done my pikachu nail art

quite successful compare with last time i draw it~

thank god

here the pic

going to show everyone n say PIKA! PIKA~

good night~ <3

FEBRUARY~

不知不觉已经二月了~

时间过得好快好快哦~

2012年那么得快就已经过了六分之一了~

也不知不觉我也已经工作快一个月了

工作内容也还好

也慢慢的开始习惯新的工作

希望我可以好好的继续做下去吧~

加油！！

LOST

tonight i really feel that i really lost

just a small matter but why i will so nervous n panic

nervous until everything not under my control n my brain was blank that time

everything i had done is wrong

i feel so scare n i feel that i gotta cry if i cant found anyone to help me

suddenly feel that i very useless

i very emotional , very easy panic when incident occur

i was lost

i can't solve everything at an unfamiliar place

i thought i can solve almost everything if i want

but today i realize it i can't

i feel very sad n very sorry to someone else because of my mistake

2012

the time fly so fast n now the second week of year 2012

a brand new year 2012 i think i should hv a planing for the whole year hope i can did it

1st of all 

finally i get a job after searching for almost 2 week +

2nd 

my 007 almost die now T3T

so a good news is the new one will be replace

what should i name it?

wonder girl?

wonder women?

still wondering~~

so i think this year i should earn more and save more money

3rd

STPM result will be release around march

feel weird n worried about the result

just hope that i will pass it

4th

after get the result i gotta start apply for uni

just hope that i can get in

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today just till here <3